When life’s got you posting Christmas cards in January, and thinking about your life paths

…and if I’m really honest with you, then also posting in February! *Cue embarrassed face emoticon now.*
Although, to add a dash of reality, a bud of mine who has recently become a mom, was not at all suprised that I never got these cards posted. As she reminded me, “Motherhood is paved with good intentions.” A phrase I learnt at the start of my motherhood journey and have been reminded of ever since.

Now, most would be thinking, why did I even bother posting it…this time of the year. And to some extent, I’m rolling my eyes right along with you, like, “I know, right”. I mean, Cupido is already practising his aim, and Easter Bunny is just waiting for his cue to hop on in…yet, here I am, all “merry Christmas”…”2015(!)” But wishing everyone a merry-merry is not the be all and end all to the point of our cards every year.

I mean, yes, I’m a complete sucker for traditional snail mail post – add a bit of handwritten charm to that and Im all buttery-life-is-so-sweet-goop for the next week or so. I’d also like to think Im spreading some of that small sweetness to everyone I mail as well. So those cards are my version of “hey, Im thinking of you, and your presence in my life- no matter how small or large- means something wonderful to me, and I’m wishing goods things upon you and your fam…and by the way, Merry Christmas.”

It’s a wonderful thing if you think about it, yes? So if anything, that is NOT something I want to let go as unfinished business. By the way, here is our Christmas card for 2015, if you were interested.

And besides, I’ve never been one of those people who say shit, and never follow up on it. I put my money where my mouth is…and hell yeah, I’m totally buying stamps with that money!

Except, you see, I’m supposedly not that kind of person, but over a long time now, I’m slowly becoming that person. And I really don’t like it…

There was that triumphant comeback to the fitness world that happened last year. And then it also tanked last year thanks to very real and plausible reasons – which however, could also just be racked up as excuses too. I never used to be like that, fitness was part of my life no matter what train wrecks I was going through – granted there were no kids back then, but it’s just new dynamics that I haven’t yet taken the time to navigate.

And there were numerous other life scenarios that played themselves out in a horrendous way in the past year, and I kept bashing myself for not being to navigate them well enough – especially now that I was a mother. I kept asking for a sign as to what is the right path to take.

But it was only recently, through a long journey of trying to get to grips with this notion, that I finally understood that there honestly isn’t a right or wrong path to take in this life in order to fulfill your happiness. It is purely being very clear on what is that you want in this life, and going for it. There is no singular box you have to put yourself into either. You can be, not just any one thing, but everything you wish to be.

The tricky part as I’ve come to find and as I’ve said before, is then knowing exactly, crystal clearly, knowing what it is that you wish to be and want in this life. I have no delusions that there will still be challenging moments ahead of me, and that, yes, maybe, I may still have weak moments of doubting myself, of stumbling and falling. But then also getting up again, growing from it and moving on.

So here’s to faith in myself, and very, very, very good friends and a stellar husband to fanning those flames of possibility and passion within me when I forget how.

And also to remaining true to my character and always following through…like posting those damn Christmas cards that I had ready by the second week of December already. Besides, don’t forget: Philippians 4:13!

Ps. judging from the amount of people with whom Ive had this conversation with, it seems like there is a more steady movement in consciousness in our society recently, where many are seeking out this very same enlightenment. And I’ve got to say, it’s wonderful to witness and be on that very same journey. In fact, a similar post of reflection by another mommy blogger I enjoy can be seen here. As an outsider looking in, she’s hardworking, encouraging of others, successful, but guess what? She made it all up! Go have a read. Just go.